I thought that the social worker being gone for almost 3 weeks would have backlogged the bulletins and there would be quite a few when they finally came out last week. Well, there wasn't. There was just 1 little boy that is out of our age range. The reality of how few legally free, young children there are waiting (at least in Oregon) is really starting to hit me. It is hard for me to keep on this path knowing that I am fighting SOOO many other families for the same children, when I am extremely aware that there are so many kids waiting around the world who have noone fighting for them. I am still trying to figure out if we are where we are supposed to be. I am so confused.